>>33447295
i hate to trivialize your feelings, but you merely sound like you have attachment issues, that's all. you're even noticing the contradiction, why would she want nothing to do with you after many years of friendship/dating? do you honestly believe, after all that time, that she has no attachment to you? it's not even that you have to ignore her, btw (if you want to guarantee you both won't get back together, that's probably a good way to do it lol), just give her some space. if it's been a long time, and nothing is changing, talk to her about where things are between you two so you can move on.

i'm not gonna sugar coat things, it isn't a non-zero chance that meeting tomorrow is going to be heavy in a negative way. letting go is less ignoring her, and more about accepting outcomes. and it doesn't mean you can't feel bad, either. it is perfectly reasonable to feel bad, someone you're really close to has distanced themselves from you.

try to go in tomorrow with no expectations.