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(Also just to manage expectations, I'm probably going to sleep soon so I may not get a response in before the next thread, but inn general I hope you can focus on the positive reactions you receive from people and that you don't internalise too much judgement from people. Self improvement can feel really empowering, but it can also be a hamster wheel to nowhere if you don't build confidence too. Speaking from experience, I'm sure a lot of the negative responses your receiving are based more in your own negative self perception than in their perception of you, don't spend your whole life tearing yourself to shreds in hope to win approval. You'd be surprised what people will believe if you just express it to them in confidence. Confidence is the hardest thing to build, I'll let you know when I've cracked that code lol, but it's certainly the most effective thing out there)