I got a loving girlfriend but actively groom 13-16 year old girls on discord to play with their emotions, posing myself as another personality with their interests and lovebombing them. I can't stop hurting them. Nothing sexual occurs nor have my doings resulted in serious harm but it brings me comfort knowing I can alter their brains to forever despise me yet cling onto that personality they lost with me, a love they can't get back from anybody else.

I find myself doing this to be absolutely fucking terrible and I do deserve hell for it but when you've been done the same to years ago as a 15 year old you can not stop trying to make others dependent their life on you