>be 29yo
>depressed for most of my life, didn’t try dating seriously until few years ago
>finally stable and happy enough to put myself out there
>download apps, start swiping
>surprisingly get matches, go on some dates
>dates go well, convo flows, girls say they enjoy it
>text eachother every day
>a few days/weeks later
>radio silence
>blocked on everything
>ghosted every single time (I mean like EVERY single time with every girl)
>self esteem is down the gutter
>can’t tell if I’m ugly, weird or just cursed
>my family/friends say I'm handsome, I should be able to get gf without problems
>don't believe them anymore
>think back on my life
>people always kept distance from me, even as a kid
>friends never fully included me, always some invisible wall
>been kind and respectful, not a creep, can be funny and hold a conversation
>still end up avoided like I have the plague
>every failure just makes the loneliness hit harder
>tfw I feel like I’ll die alone
what the fuck am I supposed to do? is there a secret solution to not be tossed aside?