years ago a close friend of mine (who is also my ex) told me a fucked up story that i never forgot.

her, her best friend, and this other mutual friend of ours get together and drop acid at a party. some time passes and the mutual friend has a bad reaction to the acid. tries to rape her and the other friend. when unsuccessful he slits his wrists and runs through the house smearing blood all over the walls. cops are called but i guess my friend didn’t press charges because the mutual friend shows up the next day in an attempt to remove all the dried blood from the walls.
i end up hearing about this about a month or so later, from both my close friend and her best friend on separate occasions, independent of one another.

now years have passed and my close friend has moved away. the mutual friend however is still here and also happens to be close with another one of my good friends. this good friend of mine keeps on trying to convince me that now that he’s married, he’s a ‘changed man’, someone that i would be more comfortable hanging out with despite the fact that he fucking knows what happened (i told him).

it makes me sick to my fucking stomach. never before have i resented one of my friends so much for trying to get me to hang out with someone. why does he keep on fucking trying? why does he insist on me attempting to get along with someone i clearly have no interest in being around or hearing about? i dont give a fuck if he’s married, since when has an attempted rapist been reformed by marriage????? i dont fucking get it.

what a fucking idiot.