Im going to come out and say it: Im a 22 year old bong and I hate my country. I hate the people, I hate the fact that it never gave me a chance, I hate the fact that every time I try and put my foot in the door to begin my life I end up getting rejected. Military, police, fire service etc rejection, rejection, rejection. I hate the fact that I don’t share the same values and I cant see the world the way other bongs do. I hate the fact im not like other people in this country, that I never had the same experiences or milestones that others had while growing up. Never did drugs, had sex or partied or went clubbing. It also doesn’t help that I’m a closeted atheist from my muslim parents. I have no connection with my cultural identity that they raised me in. Ive made so much mistakes that cost me a lot that I just had enough and It made me realise something: Im not British. And you know what thats fine. I have to make my peace with that but Im also making a promise to myself that Im not going to die here. Fuck this place, I’m not going to be buried here. My plan is to gain a paramedic degree via apprenticeship here then apply for an emt position abroad. I wish I was born in America so thats my wish. I have to bite the bullet and realise that in order to leave I need to gain valuable skills and purse higher education. But are there any other routes that I can take to achieve this?