Nah, mate, if life is but a dream, and I do believe it is a dream, then this happened because you are meant to finally confront this burden, and no longer try and pretend that you can live a life without integrating it. How can she be the love of your life if she did not love you in spite, or because of, your burden? Whatever she loved, it wasn't your life. And until you confront the actual nature of your life, no one will be able to love you and be a true part of your life.