i don't know why i'm letting you cheat on her with me. low self esteem, lonely maybe. how do you really feel about her or me? this is really soul deteriorating. did you tell her yet, is she okay with us being a thing if that's what this is? i don't want to be in the dark but I also just don't know what we are if anything. just friends? friends where you admitted to having feelings for me?

i enjoy the comfort you give me but still, something in my soul feels cautious. or is it really not that bad i should just not give a fuck about it and worry more about myself? I probably should take care of myself more. I don't know how really.