My best friend of five years and girlfriend of the two broke up with me yesterday. I am 21 so we have been together in some way for a quarter of my entire life. I really do believe she is the love of my life. She said she left because she wasn't ready to be in a lifelong relationship with her first boyfriend. She isn't emotionally mature and she needs time to grow and be free on her own. I can't blame her for that since I had the chance to explore before we began dating. It's all very strange because she was always the clingier and more romantic one, I never imagined her ever breaking a promise. Maybe she just said it to make it easier for herself but she said she believes we're meant to be together in the end and I believe she believes that. I think long distance and both being at school was just too much of an obstacle for us. I can't tell anybody because I don't want them to tell me I'm delusional and just have to move on and focus on myself. I know that I am living for the day we can be together again, whether that day comes or not.

I love you. I am still proud of you. I will be here for you.