It sounds like you have an inferiority complex.
Kind of like what Eliot Rodger had.

You can have the money & body of a chad, but if you're
anything like the chuds I deal with on the regular
that makes life a dick measuring contest
no woman is going to want to fuck you.
Why would she?

If you believe 'she deserves better', you're going to be looking for signs of cheating.

If you see a male 'that's doing better' by your perception
you're going to either
wilt and hide in your shell
or be a cunt that wears sunglasses and drives a lifted truck
and tries to fight, or intimidate every 'sex haver'

Don't be that guy.

There are resources to help you.
Dermatologist to get your skin clear, and glowing. They even have treatments that don't require botox to make your skin look younger. Look into microneedling.
Therapist to work through deep issues that 4skin can't help with.
MMA coaching, so you can confidently exist among giants without getting little man syndrome.

I just don't want you to leave this site today feeling like we
a) don't understand the actual suffering loneliness causes
b) don't want to help

We might not have the experience, or advice you are looking for, and that's fine.
But I genuinely hope you can dig deep
and find strength to become the person you want to be today.