i'm 30

every day i wonder what it's like to be up close with a beautiful girl (or any girl) and kissing her and touching her and being inside of her

i've never made out with a girl

never had my hands on a girl's boobs

had my hands on a girl's waist/hips once for some balancing rope thing in gym class

only held girls hands during group games like red rover or whatever

i can't do anything

i don't want to leave house

i have no desire to go anywhere

talking to people is exhausting

i'm tired all the time

only have the energy to read and watch videos

all i want is a pretty egirl to kiss and hug and cuddle and have sex with

but there's too many things involved to acquire that so i can't even bother

sigh...