i am copying this here from the last thread

i mean the thing that makes me sad is that something happened when i was younger and i fell into sissy porn and then bbc porn straight after. i’m 24 and that was at least 14 years ago. i literally ordered my first cage, dildo, makeup and clothes at 15 during the summer vacation and then threw it all out due to shame. i have had like 7 cages since then and every relapse i want another. one time i kept throwing a cage away and kept relapsing and fishing it out of the trash in the middle of the night and disinfecting it to desperately use it again. “whiteboi heat” is so fucking strong for me because i actually believe the superiority and inferiority and i am seeing the world and especially my country change in front of my own eyes. there are girls making millions humiliating white men and fucking black men. i’m still a virgin and there are videos i can find in a few minutes of the prettiest white girls worshipping the biggest black cocks. i even remember one video and the guy keeps repeating “such a pretty blonde pure european white girl” while fucking her mouth. do you know how powerful that is to watch as a virgin blond european white boy? it is as powerful as the hardest drugs out there and it has literally rewritten my mind. i do still want to quit deep down but it just feels impossible. it has also given me insecurities and destroyed my confidence but made me appreciate my femininity.

there is no point denying black men are sexually superior and competing just feels impossible when i am already this deep on the other end of the spectrum