i got into an inappropriate sexual relationship with a 12 year old boy when I was 17. He was the son of a guy my mom was dating. I had to watch him while they went on dates. Mostly we just watched tv until they came home. As time went on he started sitting closer and closer to me. While we were on the couch he put his arm around my side and held me. It was cute so I didn’t say anything. I could feel his hand moving up towards my boob. I thought about stopping him but I figured it was his first boob and he was brave enough to try so why not let him touch one. Then I let him touch them both. When his hand started to go lower an alarm went off in my brain that said ok now stop him. But I didn’t and his fingers clumsily touched my pussy over my panties. He didn’t know what he was doing but it still felt good. I told myself as long as I didn’t touch him I wasn’t doing anything wrong. I knew I should stop him but I let him continue, off went my shirt, my shorts went soon after. Then I took it to far. He stood up and took his pants off and was standing naked in front of me. In my head I said ok this is it stop what you are doing right now. His hands were shaking when he reached for my panties, my whole mind was telling my arms to move and stop him but I didn’t. When he took my panties off I layed back on the couch and opened my legs for him. he got on top of me but seemed unsure what to do. At this point I said fuck it and I guided him into me. He thrust twice and said my name, and I could feel him cumming in me. I had sex with two guys already but they wore condoms every time so having cum drip out of me was new. We got cleaned up and went back to watching tv. And that’s how the next 6 months went. Our parents would leave and I would have sex with him. Part of me felt obligated since I already let him do it, but it’d be a lie to say I didn’t enjoy the experience. He was so curious and grateful. I know it was wrong but he seemed happy.