Been with my GF since high school. Over the years she got fat an unattractive and we stopped having sex. When I lived abroad for a while I had an affair for a month or so with a younger coworker. I really should have just ended the relationship. However I moved back in with the GF through some retard logic thinking it would get better. I've now been celibate for a year.

The girl I cheated on her with got fit, is now very attractive and waited for me to kill my relationship and move in with her. But she was also in another country and I didn't want to move again so soon. I'll never find someone like her again but she was also a bit extreme and crazy. Anyway, she got fed up and moved on. And I'm still with the hamplanet.

I've come to realize it won't get better and I should have ended it three years ago. I'm 31 and it feels like it's too late to live this part of my life now. I think I'm dating app cannon fodder and no longer have university or other means to meet young or young-ish women.