I was so afraid of anything gay that when I started masturbating to porn, I would only look at lesbian stuff
I didn't want to see a dick even
at some point I found shemale/t girl porn
it was so hot to me
and it didn't seem gay because of how feminine the dick was
it quickly turned into girls fucking trans woman
I could only jerk off to t girls getting absolutely dominated by a strap on
years this went on without me thinking anything about me was queer
I would justify it whatever way had to
traps aren't gay
its a man and woman so not gay
the dick isn't even being used so its not gay
fast forward 15 years and I am a tranny faggot
have a tranny girlfriend with a huge cock

if I could give any advice it is just dont worry about shit and be attracted who you are attracted to
you would know if you were actually craving that cock
and its like perfectly normal to have a tranny fetish
and it doesn't always mean you are a faggot
but in my case it definitely did and I wish I was honest with myself sooner