>>938551464
Damn, that IS hard. Hang in there and try to keep your reasoning clear while you're still feeling/processing your feelings.
It's not a permanent situation. It's just where you are right now. I think a student loan could be worth considering, but I'd strongly suggest you have a good plan for what and why you're studying as well as a rough idea of how you plan to make the finances work for any additional study needed to get you to your planned job.