I destroyed my penis prone masturbating humping a pillow while limp until I came limp. I did this for 15+ years. Finally got a gf and couldn't fuck her without Viagra. I never came with her. Fucked her for 3 or 4 minutes then went soft. My libido is also deadened by sleeping 5 hours a night the past 5 years so I could be a wagecuck so I could get a girlfriend in the first place. Now she's dumped me and I know deep down it's because of the sex. Im 30, not fat. I tried fapping normally after 2 or 3 months of not masturbating but I could never cum from it. I have a tightness in my perineum and back of my ballsack. I'm seeing a urologist soon. He'll probably tell me my dick is ruined in which case I'm gonna go NEET because I have no reason to even try in life anymore.