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Continued.
It was a short convo. I was shocked but wanted to be a good ex so I said “thank you for letting me know and I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOU :)”
I asked him if he was okay because I felt bad he was hiding this. He said “Yea”.
Never asked if I was okay, didn’t check in on me after. As if he didn’t drop a nuke on my heart.
He doesn’t care about me he’s completely done with my boring lame fat ugly BPD depressed shit. And I mean this genuinely, I’m happy for him. I love him and I WAS holding him back. But fuck… He’s mine. He’s fucking mine. And soon, this random will be sleeping with him. Taking care of our dog I raised… Who I will never see again in my life because I obviously can’t fly to visit him now that he has a bf. That wouldn’t be okay. So… I’m grieving bros. This is on top of me genuinely considering suicide and being put on a new SSRI this past month.