>>938833942
I used to think that too but the older I get the more I realize it was the BPD. My shame and guilt is completely blown out of proportion and my fear of social rejection is existentially serious so I avoid it. But it's delusional. I think it's because of being so traumatized as a child my brain could only conclude that something was wrong with me for me to be treated this way. But it isn't real and you can get better. I assure you you are worthy of love, as is everyone in this thread. But you ask need to seek help