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Thank you so so much :D It means a lot, really. Maybe it’s because I never fit in with boys growing up, especially big ones. So now seeing those same strong boyish/manly men actually want a little shy weird guy like me to be a live in best friend, buddy, little bro, and lover, wow it’s probably the most healing thing.
It’s a challenge for sure. I get obsessive, paranoid that people hate me, and that I’m in trouble all the time. Causing me to constantly ask if you’re mad at me or why you worded this that way etc.
Or how jealous I’d get, constantly having to know every person in my ex’s circle and what he was doing at all time because I was so scared of him leaving me, finding someone better, or somehow getting in an accident or something, just anything, the intrusive thoughts suck. I was like this ever since I was a kid and it annoyed the shit out of my parents. Then during adolescence I was in a really traumatic situation for a few years and that made me who I am today I guess. But if it makes me a good little bro then maybe it was worth it?
But it gets tough for the other person to deal with after a which I understand.
I just found out my ex is dating again which is why I’m here… Basically had to put a suicide warning out for myself and my knight in shining armor came Friday night to save me :3
You’re love to meet someone like me, careful what you wish for. I try my very very best to be a good boy but it can be soul sucking for the other person :(