>>939473841
You're young and have probably no real perspective of how people and the world have changed in the past two decades or so. I think it is incredibly likely that you have been influenced by by all the gay shit in current culture, and how people live with a social gun to their head ready to be fired if they don't praise homos and divergent sexuality at every turn. You are probably very repressed sexually, having lived your "whole life" subconsciously trying to appease the angry woke prevailing culture among people your age. The fact that it was an altercation that has caused this breakthrough points very strongly in that direction as well. You've never let yourself explore sexual attraction towards men for all these reasons, and now you're getting sucker punched by it. You don't need to go through mental gymnastics to determine what's wrong with you for being attracted to a man - You are simply attracted to a man. That's all.