>>939622669
Gotcha.

Try and find yourself a decent therapist and float the idea with them, I can take a solid guess but I'm obvs not a doctor. Maybe discuss this idea you have of being stalked by your bf at the same time.

Very few people are wired in a way that will make him do that. Of those, very few are actually safe to be around.

But idk what to do with your desire which is filling you, and tbh /b/ in general isn't the greatest place for advice on that. Seek a competent professional.

On a lighter note, it IS kinda cute. Just... Not workable or 'real' in terms of what you can actually get.