Luxemboy
11/7/2025, 2:08:52 AM
No.942208761
>>942205823
Who is Brian? :p
>>942207499
> also i feel like i’m acting all self important by constantly announcing my health issues in a cozy gay thread lol
Shut it homoboy. You can't be cozy in a place where you can't be your true self. Where you have to play pretend. Remember I told you those times Ruadhán and I completely cried out in each other's arms? That's probably one of the coziest moments I've ever felt in my life. Because I was truly being listened to. Because I could really open up the most vulnerable part of myself. Because my tears spoke a language that can't be put into words but that he understood. I'm not saying you should dump everything in here (not wise privacy-wise either)... But don't be afraid to share. Don't think you're making it all by yourself. And if in doubt, just use the technique I taught you. Ask questions.
You think I can't relate to health issues? I was knocked out cold and had my back torn open. I'm half blind. I had severe self esteem issues, partly due the aforementioned two and due to being short. But surrounding myself with people who love me for who I am made me able to love myself. If not for them and especially Ruadhán, I'd still be wearing that patch in my neck.
You know, I forgot to tell this but a few days ago I also broke down crying again in the morning. I had an itch in my neck, felt the scar tissue and then suddenly realised "I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT MY SCARS AT ALL YESTERDAY!!!". Ever since the accident I've thought about them every day and night. Everytime I looked in the mirror it was with disgust or sadness. Over time with Ruadhán I got to see them more neutral. As part of me. But a few days ago I had had a FULL day off me not having a thought about them AT ALL!!!
Even most of the deepest wounds might be cured by time and love. I think you need to hear that Kitty from Hardwarestorestare. Give it time and love.
Who is Brian? :p
>>942207499
> also i feel like i’m acting all self important by constantly announcing my health issues in a cozy gay thread lol
Shut it homoboy. You can't be cozy in a place where you can't be your true self. Where you have to play pretend. Remember I told you those times Ruadhán and I completely cried out in each other's arms? That's probably one of the coziest moments I've ever felt in my life. Because I was truly being listened to. Because I could really open up the most vulnerable part of myself. Because my tears spoke a language that can't be put into words but that he understood. I'm not saying you should dump everything in here (not wise privacy-wise either)... But don't be afraid to share. Don't think you're making it all by yourself. And if in doubt, just use the technique I taught you. Ask questions.
You think I can't relate to health issues? I was knocked out cold and had my back torn open. I'm half blind. I had severe self esteem issues, partly due the aforementioned two and due to being short. But surrounding myself with people who love me for who I am made me able to love myself. If not for them and especially Ruadhán, I'd still be wearing that patch in my neck.
You know, I forgot to tell this but a few days ago I also broke down crying again in the morning. I had an itch in my neck, felt the scar tissue and then suddenly realised "I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT MY SCARS AT ALL YESTERDAY!!!". Ever since the accident I've thought about them every day and night. Everytime I looked in the mirror it was with disgust or sadness. Over time with Ruadhán I got to see them more neutral. As part of me. But a few days ago I had had a FULL day off me not having a thought about them AT ALL!!!
Even most of the deepest wounds might be cured by time and love. I think you need to hear that Kitty from Hardwarestorestare. Give it time and love.