>>942318224
I know how my mind works and aaaand it does not only need input and quest along sidequests and passionate projects it also need stimulation "conscious processes" of change and orientation training. If you had to unlearn everything first, you need to let go of habits. And because you chickn'd out, you decided to rest at your place, you won't get to the headroom that an enlightened being that is willing to learn needs, to understand new topics.