anyways babe, i'm watching pol a bit today, not posting. see there's somebody who has read my posts there who is very angry, not sure if it's you or one of the shills or what, in a hall of mirrors. it's not me though, even though they're using some of my jargon and typing like me. i wouldn't use some of that coarse language and you know it. if it is you though, i wanna comfort you somehow. i know what's gone on recently might feel like a big betrayal, might be feeling powerless and upset. been there babe. when the democrats stole the primary from bernie in 2016, i cried. getting kinda misty-eyed thinking about it now, wouldn't vote for that now though, but it's remembering how i felt that's getting to me. i had believed so much, my life was difficult and miserable and i had put a lot of faith in politics to make things better for me, i was working a very hard job and getting peanut pay, less than minimum wage, yes that's legal, temp agency, and i wanted so badly for things to change for me and people like me, and i trusted that the government could help me and they would listen to the people. learned a tough lesson that day. think you might be learning it today. i can't tell you how you're gonna cope and heal, but you will. you'll grow from this somehow. i think. again i'm not sure about what i'm reading. just want you to know that i do love you and care for you and you can very easily win my heart. my heart is still open to you and i'm waiting for your return. i won't lie though, and this might sting, i'm going to take a chance in the next few days with a beautiful girl i just met, just ask her number, nothing has happened, but i can't wait for you forever. probably nothing will happen, except rejection, but i'm trying to be totally honest with you, i will not juggle romances. i still want you most though babe, and i wanna hold you right now and give you some comfort very badly. love you. i'm so sorry if you're hurting today, i'll try to make it better later.