Well I'm feeling pretty bad about myself right now. Woe is me, I know. To know that you aren't anything but a weirdo to her sucks. I obviously knew given the situation and my behaviour, how could anyone not think that, but it hurts to hear it from her. I feel like it's the first time she's been honest on this topic in a long time, probably because of the stress of the trip and just overall being pissed at people. She didn't feel like masking this time. It's my fault of course. I don't know if that makes it sting more or less than if it wasn't. I'm thinking more.

Just another bong
Just another dedmen
Just another ross

Fuck it all.