Anonymous
8/27/2025, 11:16:25 AM
No.11364620
>>11364614
honestly, independent of the coincidental subject matter, i can't help you with getting over the trauma of being exploited when you allowed yourself to be vulnerable, because even after years of mulling-over my grief, i still struggle with allowing myself to be emotionally vulnerable to people. i honestly think i have no coping mechanisms, because if i make myself vulnerable to people and i receive negative feedback, to me i either have to respond dismantling why their feedback is irrational, or i sit on it, but i consider such as hurting me, so i wish i'd never seen the negative feedback at all
but, the coincidental subject matter is such that it appears to me that your inhibition lies in merely going through the motion of allowing yourself to be vulnerable, and not the precedent of emotional vulnerability. it is a meaningful distinction, in that from what i understand, provided you had someone in whom you had faith wouldn't emotionally abuse you for your writing- which you have no coping mechanisms for-, it is that you cannot bring yourself to share your writing with them. it is distinct from having no problem with sharing your writing with anyone, but your being too emotionally blunted to allow yourself to find such fulfilling anymore, because being emotionally-invested in the feedback of others would open yourself up to abuse
so, to me, the solution appears to be any discipline/procrastination method that would get you to take baby steps towards your goal, since you just need to become familiar again with the practice of sharing your writing with others, so it doesn't seem like an insurmountable barrier to cross. here's a kind of embarrassingly-titled video on such i watched on 2x speed a few weeks ago:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1uScqo3KQk
it's about "FAST":
F - feel the emotion
A - accept the emotion
S - shrink the action
T - tie it to your identity
basically just snowballing patronizingly-small steps into huge feats you can be proud of
honestly, independent of the coincidental subject matter, i can't help you with getting over the trauma of being exploited when you allowed yourself to be vulnerable, because even after years of mulling-over my grief, i still struggle with allowing myself to be emotionally vulnerable to people. i honestly think i have no coping mechanisms, because if i make myself vulnerable to people and i receive negative feedback, to me i either have to respond dismantling why their feedback is irrational, or i sit on it, but i consider such as hurting me, so i wish i'd never seen the negative feedback at all
but, the coincidental subject matter is such that it appears to me that your inhibition lies in merely going through the motion of allowing yourself to be vulnerable, and not the precedent of emotional vulnerability. it is a meaningful distinction, in that from what i understand, provided you had someone in whom you had faith wouldn't emotionally abuse you for your writing- which you have no coping mechanisms for-, it is that you cannot bring yourself to share your writing with them. it is distinct from having no problem with sharing your writing with anyone, but your being too emotionally blunted to allow yourself to find such fulfilling anymore, because being emotionally-invested in the feedback of others would open yourself up to abuse
so, to me, the solution appears to be any discipline/procrastination method that would get you to take baby steps towards your goal, since you just need to become familiar again with the practice of sharing your writing with others, so it doesn't seem like an insurmountable barrier to cross. here's a kind of embarrassingly-titled video on such i watched on 2x speed a few weeks ago:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1uScqo3KQk
it's about "FAST":
F - feel the emotion
A - accept the emotion
S - shrink the action
T - tie it to your identity
basically just snowballing patronizingly-small steps into huge feats you can be proud of