>>11407398
>whacking off to sissy hypno for 10 years (oh god it really has been 10 years) as a cis girl messes with your brain i think.
The media you consume is a reflection of who you are. It's the same paradox as drugs- healthy, well adjusted people don't fall into drug abuse typically and studies have repeatedly demonstrated that the ones that do tend to bounce back from it rapidly instead of entering that death spiral of an addiction that ends when they bottom out or die.
You like sissy hypno because it is attractive to you, most likely as an escapist fantasy since you can't actually be a sissy. Either that or you're attracted to feminine men, or like similar fetishes you want to be able to ruin someone and still have them love and worship you.
>probably some combination of having a serious humiliation fetish and internalizing deep insecurities from being bullied and being called an ugly nonpassing crossdressing man on the internet despite being a cis girl
Subterranean self esteem will do that. You're fetishizing your trauma instead of considering that someone might like you for your self evident value instead of some version of you that you dress yourself up as. No judgement, but maybe try being social?
>>11407359
Most women have an incredibly unhealthy relationship with sex. It's not that goonettes don't exist but that they're rare, and most women are so wound up in their own headspace that they won't even consider trying it. Their loss.