Bros, I probably have weird body dysmorphia and some kind of eating disorder. I get pretty extreme IBS before running which I use to my advantage to empty myself out and "make weight". I always get an extreme fear of failing my run and it makes my nervous. I always run one mile for the max speed my treadmill goes (10 mph so a 6 min mile) then catch my breath for 5 minutes and run for 60-90 minutes after which is the main weight killer. I think I overate tonight though. I tend to run heavy and put on a lot of sweat clothes to really drain myself and force sweating during my running. I also chew gum and spit on a rag to lower my body weight as well via dehydration. I have to run tomorrow as part of my schedule. Do I run tonight and maybe even do some self induced vomiting to keep my weight under control tonight? I don't know if I can do my routine tomorrow if I run tonight but I doubt I can get back to ideal weight tomorrow even after a full day of defecating from the IBS.

For context I'm 5'09" and my goal is to never be over 125 lbs. My ideal is to be 115-116 lbs. The most weight I have ever lost in one day is 9.2 lbs through a combination of IBS, sweating, and spitting. I have at times used diuretics.

For years I have had a diet where almost every day of the year I only eat one meal a day and only after 6:00 PM and try to cut myself off from everything at 9:00. I also do not drink anything including water until after my workout which I make sure to always have done by 5:00 PM-6:00 PM. I regularly weight myself 4-5 times per day.