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Like the other anon says you can just apply and feel despair so you can reqlly internalize how hopeless your situation is. It is like a fulltime job to just apply so you'll feel almost productive for a bit.
Otherwise you should do projects on the side with modern tools while going back to your odd jobs. No amount of education will move the needle eniugh on its own, you need work experience. How to get work experience? By having years of work experience, of course!