i'm really struggling using a flip phone right now
i mean, basically i'm aware how much i've struggled for 15 years.
deleted social media, stopped texting so much, and trying to live in the moment. but i never get to go out, do social things, and so it keeps just fucking with my head.
i woke up alone, like i have for 15 years, and my mind is in fucking survival mode. i don't want to be this way. the smartphone is a fake cure, it doesn't actual make you content. but without it, i feel like i'm going crazy. and i think i always have been crazy.