>>29335946
For what's it's worth, I felt like suicide was my only option when I was around 24. I felt I had fucked things in a way I could never recover and that the only proper thing was to die. Ultimately I didn't go through with, and I hated myself for being such a pussy.

In the almost ten years since, I haven't really regretted not killing myself once. Even when the depression comes back now and again, along with the suicidal ideation, I've come to notice that it eventually goes away. And with the perspective that comes with some time passing, I'm always glad my past self didn't do it.

I suggest you postpone and give yourself some perspective, and I hope that you will eventually end up in the same place as I have.

Waiting a bit can't really be the end of the world, you can always do it some other Sunday. Good luck anon.