Anonymous
8/22/2025, 8:51:57 PM
No.29337820
>>29335946
I was suicidal 4 years ago at 24. Just got kicked out of my apartment, almost no friends, no job and no education. Even planned how and when I would do it, was gonna do it right after a family vacation so I at least could see them one last time before I did it. My main focus was that it should be fast, painless and not leave a mess. I didn't want anyone to clean up after me, as I didn't want to be a bother to anyone, I just didn't want to be here anymore. Fucked up as it is, that was my main concern regarding the suicide, that some poor bloke would have to spend a few hours of his day cleaning up my corpse.
I didn't go through with it because I knew that it would fuck my little sister up for life. As strange as it sounds, my suicidal state was actually more of a blessing rather than a curse. Since everything was meaningless, I was way more prone to taking risk. Decided to work a shitty job for a few years to save some money, and now I am in university studying an engineering degree in a city far away from home. I am pretty happy over here, and I know for a fact that I would never have done this if I didn't go through the darkest period of my life. I am now completely set on returning home after my degree, a completely fresh version of myself. I am going to be well educated, in great shape and with a bunch of great memories from my time studying.
Keep your chin up anon, even though everything seems dark and hopeless right now. Life is pretty strange sometimes and you can't possibly predict what it looks like 4 years from now.
I was suicidal 4 years ago at 24. Just got kicked out of my apartment, almost no friends, no job and no education. Even planned how and when I would do it, was gonna do it right after a family vacation so I at least could see them one last time before I did it. My main focus was that it should be fast, painless and not leave a mess. I didn't want anyone to clean up after me, as I didn't want to be a bother to anyone, I just didn't want to be here anymore. Fucked up as it is, that was my main concern regarding the suicide, that some poor bloke would have to spend a few hours of his day cleaning up my corpse.
I didn't go through with it because I knew that it would fuck my little sister up for life. As strange as it sounds, my suicidal state was actually more of a blessing rather than a curse. Since everything was meaningless, I was way more prone to taking risk. Decided to work a shitty job for a few years to save some money, and now I am in university studying an engineering degree in a city far away from home. I am pretty happy over here, and I know for a fact that I would never have done this if I didn't go through the darkest period of my life. I am now completely set on returning home after my degree, a completely fresh version of myself. I am going to be well educated, in great shape and with a bunch of great memories from my time studying.
Keep your chin up anon, even though everything seems dark and hopeless right now. Life is pretty strange sometimes and you can't possibly predict what it looks like 4 years from now.