This made me question my whole manhood, existence and everything.
There's people less physically appealing as me, less intelligent without and degree and neurotypical enjoying life to its fullest and having more success than me.
And I don't get me wrong this is not jealousy"Those who dare win"
I want to just be among them, happy, better and not just having these stupid problems and crushing it in life no matter how trivial it is.
I had big hopes and dreams but so far the only dream I had is to be normal. Which I will never be.
I want this life to be over, I am not a leech to society, but I want this all to end. Planned to die by throwing myself or fighting some wild animal to death I am not joking.
I despise my existence, I never asked to have Autism and ADHD in one package in a timeline that is not suited for it.
I wish all anons good luck cause I never found it.