>>29335946
So many people telling you not to do it when the truth is you're already not going to do it. You made this thread because you don't want to, not because you want to prepare. You're putting it off for another day because you don't want to, not because you're not ready yet. When you slip the rope around your neck, maybe even feel it pull, a step I don't think you'll even get to, you will feel the profound discomfort and abort, cry, and return to your depressed state. Suicide happens in the split second almost always. It isn't a rational decision, it's an impulsive one. You may find yourself making such a decision one day, and maybe for good reason, but it won't be this time. It's up to you to fully make sense of why that is and deal with it with whatever means you have to do so. Good luck.