I'm to the point where I've been drawing for a few years learning things here and there, making my own original pieces, decent ability to copy and replicate other art. all of the sudden it feels like anything I try to make on my own is dogshit. It takes so much more effort to brute force trying to create original work over reproducing. ideas have stopped coming to me no matter how many days I try so I'm just kind of spinning my wheels aimlessly re-practicing various things, but it doesn't go anywhere because I'm not putting my full effort into it because I've done it already somewhere along the line. I know you never stop with the basics but it's like I can't get over myself and regain that humility. changing mediums didn't really work and I'm just going through the motions if I try to study. It's like I yearn to create but my abilities aren't where I want them to be, and I don't even know what I want to create anymore. The last finished thing I really applied myself towards was 3 months ago, since then I draw most days but most of them don't go well. I'm afraid of taking a break because I might as well have been this whole time, and it will just push everything off longer. the only thing that doesn't feel painful is copying, but that's because it's not really my work that I'm having to face