Anonymous
6/18/2025, 6:40:32 PM
No.211867417
6/18/2025, 6:40:32 PM
No.211867417
>>211866643
I... I used to, I guess. Not anymore. I have desires that sometimes rear their heads, and I daydream a lot, but I know it's a LARP I do to pass the time and delude myself. I cannot find anything within myself to motivate me to do anything bar the bare minimum. I don't even wish for things anymore. Half because I know I don't deserve it, half because I am kinda enjoying the misery. I feel empty of sorts. Even my melancholy is forced and fake these days. I think I am slowly being drained of everything. Maybe I'll end up a husk who's okay with the mess he's made of everything, I don't know.
I... I used to, I guess. Not anymore. I have desires that sometimes rear their heads, and I daydream a lot, but I know it's a LARP I do to pass the time and delude myself. I cannot find anything within myself to motivate me to do anything bar the bare minimum. I don't even wish for things anymore. Half because I know I don't deserve it, half because I am kinda enjoying the misery. I feel empty of sorts. Even my melancholy is forced and fake these days. I think I am slowly being drained of everything. Maybe I'll end up a husk who's okay with the mess he's made of everything, I don't know.