>>40365043
Yeah, that feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop is familiar. I also have that thing where I throw myself completely into a relationship and try to do everything I can to show I care, like making origami and writing music and making doodles and anything else I can think of. It does feel like it always comes down to the anxiety of that enthusiasm not being reciprocated, but I think more and more that that's a perspective thing. I've got to trust someone is loving me in the way they do, rather than the way I would if it were me. Still, that's an adjustment for sure and I'm in the process of calibrating like that. It does sound like you could use a date with someone who's really into you that youre really into as well. That sort of thing can go a long way.