>>41534333
generally they reach a point of feeling threatened by me and start getting pissy and trying to like. undermine me even in front of other people. and it's like. that shit doesn't bother me but it does gross me out. like I can't be in a relationship with someone who wants me to be less than I am you know what I mean
but most cases are just the usual shit all chasers do. cocksexual shit, not wanting to be seen with me in public, being an OBVIOUS repper, saying weird insane racist shit, etc.
or i watch them treat people around them badly. or they try and do weird manipulation shit and it just makes them seem disgusting. or they have zero interest in me as a person and only see me as a fetish object. or they just get mad that I'm not automatically and constantly deferential to them. or they get weird about not being able to fuck as much as me even tho I don't mind at all. or they keep begging me to top. or or or
it's just embarrassing i don't want to be putting up with that like i expect basic respect and won't tolerate any less but I end up giving in and putting up with it anyway I hate it but I love men I love them I can't stay away however hard I try