>>42707553
>you gotta dial back the despair and focus on one thing first and foremost: having fun doing what your doing.
This. And hard.
>>42707540
Try to calm down, perhaps play a game or go for a run, or something. Then, when you feel ready, come back and focus on the fun. Do something you know you can do. From there, your curiosity will make you try harder things. This way, it's both a fun and a learning experience.