Ignore if you don't want to read a schizo crybaby faggot blogpost:

I can't bring myself to join in this year and it is breaking my heart to smithereens.
My Schizo paranoia is acting up and I feel like I fucked up so bad I can never come back. It's not even a matter if I can deliver or not (I can) its more or less that I feel terrible about everything. I didn't grinch anyone nor did I act like as asshole last year. I know it's probably all in my head and I'm insane but this community means more to me than most could possibly comprehend.It destroys me to know I can't have fun this year because I'm mentally ill.

Anyways, I'm sorry to make such a shitty faggy sounding blogpost but It's been beating me up for a couple of days now.

I hope all of you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.