>>508758907
yeah it`s not great but you kind of grow numb to it. once in a while you`ll feel sad thinking about how you missed out on life but then you`ll go back to tuning it out. but now im starting to feel some mounting desperation from getting older and still getting nowhere. we have to try somehow even knowing we will fail at least so there are no regrets. but even trying is hard when we dont know how and we are just walking pussy desiccants. im trying to at least understand the process at least and maybe drag myself back out into the world but of course ill fail, oh well whatever. maybe ill just leave canada, this place is hard mode for guys i think