Anonymous
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6/26/2025, 9:05:23 AM
No.508765386
6/26/2025, 9:05:23 AM
No.508765386
>>508761245
something similar to what you describe happened to me in 2013 and it fucked me up pretty bad, i was mostly normal before then (albeit a little degenerate/hedonistic) and over the next few years as i struggled to integrate what happened to me and reconcile my subjective reality with objective consensus reality i became further and further distanced from society to the point that now i'm more or less a hermit neet schizo disabled by the crippling burden of knowledge
at the same time, i don't regret anything and if given the opportunity wouldn't go back and change anything. i am grateful, i was given a great gift, the archetypal call to the hero's journey. but it's been real fucking stressful and i'm objectively a wreck of a human being now.
my main takeaway is that God is immanent, Life is sacred, everything is interconnected in ways we can't even begin to understand, the reality of our world is ineffable and more wondrous and complex than anyone can conceive, and service to others is the most divine form of prayer
makes it hard to get invested in small talk at parties and i usually weird out whoever i'm trying to talk to though. they'll be like "so what shows have you been watching lately?" and i'll be like "oh yknow been researching how Nazis ran the US space program and NASA was started by satanists, the atom bomb was actually an occult ritual that tore a hole in spacetime and that's why we have UFOs" and they'll say they need to refill their drink and leave
something similar to what you describe happened to me in 2013 and it fucked me up pretty bad, i was mostly normal before then (albeit a little degenerate/hedonistic) and over the next few years as i struggled to integrate what happened to me and reconcile my subjective reality with objective consensus reality i became further and further distanced from society to the point that now i'm more or less a hermit neet schizo disabled by the crippling burden of knowledge
at the same time, i don't regret anything and if given the opportunity wouldn't go back and change anything. i am grateful, i was given a great gift, the archetypal call to the hero's journey. but it's been real fucking stressful and i'm objectively a wreck of a human being now.
my main takeaway is that God is immanent, Life is sacred, everything is interconnected in ways we can't even begin to understand, the reality of our world is ineffable and more wondrous and complex than anyone can conceive, and service to others is the most divine form of prayer
makes it hard to get invested in small talk at parties and i usually weird out whoever i'm trying to talk to though. they'll be like "so what shows have you been watching lately?" and i'll be like "oh yknow been researching how Nazis ran the US space program and NASA was started by satanists, the atom bomb was actually an occult ritual that tore a hole in spacetime and that's why we have UFOs" and they'll say they need to refill their drink and leave