>>81466464
101 Rye. And a Yeungling.

I'm pissed about my life choices. Shouldn't have ever looked twice at the girl in High-school. Definitely shouldn't have married her. Wish I had just enlisted with an Op40 Infantry contact at 17 instead of getting a sterile infantry contact at 20.

Sometimes I wish I had stayed in but I have a son now, and I can't be a dad if I'm single and in the Army. Sometimes I think about contracting in Iraq but if I die my ex is gonna turn my kid into a fuckin tranny.

My house is fucked and I don't have the money to fix it. My job sucks and I missed the opportunity to get a better one because I shattered my leg. I don't have the energy to date and I doubt any girl I like would want me anyway.

I'm mad at God. I know I don't have any right to be but I'm bitter anyway. I pray and pray, but nothing gets better and I don't get strong enough to deal with it myself. I feel like I'm forever going nowhere.