>>81491496
i always knew, and would often mention in my old threads if pressed, that my dream was very impossible, or unlikely. i had unrealistic expectations, that should for example would do therapy on me and our relationship would be so wholesome that it would save me. yes she has somewhat done therapy on me, not it hasnt saved me. i am just as pathetic and broken as before. alot of my fantasises will probably never be realised, such as us perving on girls together (cause that would be weird af from her point of view irl) or her literally holding me back from suicide in a highly specific made up scenario and so on, there are so many things i want to happen that will never happen