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C,
I'm not your "brother", I'm your friend. You don't know me well enough to presume a label like that. But you use it so casually, about people you hardly know. How do you think this makes me feel after the bond we've developed over the last year? You can try to make our relationship "safe" by shallow labels, but it's just a self-deception when we both know the truth and we both know the other knows. Why play these word games? Let's just mutually agree to back off. Don't touch me, don't call me pet names, don't expect me to always be there if you want to minimize the connection. I'll be your friend and that will be that.
You're so uncomfortable with vulnerability and genuine emotion that you cause yourself all sorts of problems. It's not miscommunication, it's a lack of communication altogether because you're afraid of your own heart.
Expressing sincere emotion to you is like trying to pour a gallon of water into a shot glass: some of it gets in but mostly it just runs over the edge and is lost on you.
I have respected your all too fuzzy boundaries, and you are going to have to respect mine. I'm not interested in being someone's backup plan. Especially if you can't even talk to me about it.
I love you, you dumbass. Just talk to me