I love my bpd don't know if this should somehow be a red flag.
I just want to love my future boyfriend madly, always pamper and cherish him and love him and praise him and treat him as nicely as possible because he's that good to me and he's the best man possible and needs to know how good he is but I just know that I have limited time to do that because he will never love me or he will stop loving me eventually and I'll never be good enough for him and don't want to drag him down so I have to leave him and no longer annoy him or make him think like he deserves less by being with me.