>>81552954
i am not very smart or interesting. i want to learn a lot of things but i overwhelm myself and do nothing instead so all i have is a collection of random fun facts instead of knowledge grounded in much of anything. i want friends but i also am bad at talking to people and get overwhelmed easily by conversation and just go back to browsing forums instead. sexually my mind is broken and other than that i am autistic with anxiety. and not normal anxiety straight up delusions with physical symptoms like stomach aches brainfogs and headaches resulting that make me believe in them more. ive been afraid of surveillance before i realized im too boring for anyone to care about. i start thinking that people in the car are thinking of me with bad and evil songs and that they know i am bad and evil. idk i used to shake going into stores because the footsteps and people talking and approaching would make me wig out

i am retarded like a dog that was half assedly raised thats given xanax as a soft remedy for crippling anxiety. though i am only on light medication
and even if people compliment me i will never believe it because i know what i look like
and that is repulsive