Just spend me days watching tiktoks of women with phat arses. Endlessly, videos after video, hour after hour, hundreds if not thousands of different girls, day after day laying in my bed. Don't even really masturbate any more, not motivation to. Just wake up, lie in bed, scroll phat tiktok arse coomerbait, order takeaway and go to bed when it gets late. Rinse and repeat for days at a time. Don't even shower most days.

It barely even turns me on now to be honest. Or maybe it does, not really sure because my life is so anhedonic it's hard to tell when I'm horny. Definitely makes me bitter though, seeing so many insanely hot women living happy, fun lives, most of them with plenty of money, living in nice big houses or going on holiday every other week. I want that. I want them. I want to have sex with them and live their sort of life and I know I never will.

Not going to work unless something in my life changes. I don't care about being a good person and not parasiting off the state. Nobody gives a fuck about me and I get nothing from life so what's the fucking point of slaving away doing some shit job I hate that means nothing and pays slave wages? There isn't one.