>>81616421
Nice fan fiction. Looks are more like a subconscious factor that determines whether there is underlying attraction or "chemistry" whereas all of the traits listed here >>81616352 are intellectual reasons (not) to like the idea of the man in question, but whether you actually love him is a matter of properties such as his physical appearance, wealth, and social status.
You can think you want a well-read, cookie cutter guy who lacks any of these red flags, but if he's short, fat, and balding it really doesn't make a difference. In your mind, the supposed "guy" who matches these criteria is always a faceless blank slate of pre-existent attraction or an already attractive man, and when you imagine an ugly man, it is without the visceral disgust of the physical reality.